Soul

I have lived my life from this place of deep connection. From this sense that there is “something more” – something out there which pulls me forward again and again, whispering of that more. That infinite pull towards more… That deep sense and appreciation for Beauty which calls me forward… again and again.

Through the hard times. Beyond what is considered “sane and sensible” by so many of my peers…

That calls me to share what I know. Even knowing that I don’t know what I know.

Until someone asks…

And then the answers come bubbling up from this deep pool of connection somewhere in the core of me.

And I don’t know whether to run from this. Or towards it.

That. That is what it means to be connected with Soul, to live from this place of Soul Awareness. Knowing that I don’t know – and that I do. And that when the questions are asked, the answers come bubbling up from this deep pool of connection… Like visiting the pool of an oracle… This deep well within me, untamed and wildly nourishing…

And that, as much as I have tried to run from this place of depth and connection – it is always there. And that I am most nourished and whole when I allow myself to visit this pool of connection. To take time to enter the silence and stillness and allow the answers to bubble up from within me. From within this sense I have of the depth of connection to all that surrounds us… And from this, visions of a future still to come.

The thing is. I do not want to be different. Or special. I know that any one of us can do this. This deep connection to the longing and this place of connection, awe and beauty. I know so many who do have and do this. Who hold this within themselves, or spend their lives dedicated to searching out the mystery that lies within – and all around… I see these people all around… I’ve tracked them through the clues they leave behind. Breadcrumbs of poems and art and writing that move me to understand and accept this deeper call, to surrender to it. Again and again. I see these seekers – shining out through the eyes of friends around me, cackling with laughter at the humour of circumstances and unfortunate happenings… I am no different from anyone of them.

And I am. I keep getting asked to share what I know… By Soul, and by Spirit and that deep pull which lies beyond me…

And the how and the why and the where of this is a constant ache. And a constant balance of wanting to walk away from this path… And a deep ache of surrendering into it… Of the what, the how, there where and the why of this. The practicalities of finding ways of cramming this into something called a marketing strategy, and a lead magnet…. and finding ways to put value on this…. Without drying it up, or taming it…

Finding ways of doing this – giving it value, in amongst a world where it is not. Where even the language for it has been lost…

Whilst my Soul just laughs at those practicalities. And whispers to me that I am here to share what I know. Even where I don’t know what I know until someone asks me….

But I have to ask you this – how the hell do I explain that to the world around me and put it into practical terms?

2 Comments on “Soul

  1. “Beyond what is considered “sane and sensible” by so many of my peers…That calls me to share what I know. Even knowing that I don’t know what I know. Until someone asks… ”

    There is so much FACT in this.

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